I think about writing something here or in my journal at least twice a week...it's the thought that counts?
That last post featured far too many pictures of my feet...and so much in life has changed since, not just my toes. New roommate, new job, new friends, new...not so much friends, new challenges, new perspectives. Fun times, frustrations and freak-outs. Too many of those unwanted growing up experiences. I JUST WANT TO BE A KID AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT DUMB ADULT STUFF, OKAY. Too much to ask?
My life is a good one. Great family, great friends, great things. Even if I have to adjust to this adulting thing, I have good people around me to help. (s/o to said people...if anyone actually reads this?) And, if nothing else, I have hope for the future.
L'Chaim! To life!
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Thursday, January 8, 2015
Hammer time
I invite you to look at this picture of my lovely feet.
Aren't they cute? That's my pre-op pedi right there. However, looking closely at my right foot, we can see that toes 2, 3 and 4 (that'd be the middle toes, kids) are curved over and appear shorter than the same toes on my left foot. This is what we call Hammer Toes. (When I tell people I had hammer toe surgery, I get a lot of confused looks. This explanation was for those confused people. You're welcome.)
I've always had ugly feet. I've been made fun of by many a pedicure lady for my terribly calloused feet, my curved toes...I'd had enough. And January 2nd was my day to be done with it.
Major props to Buddy Karen for chilling with me before and after surgery...and for writing such a pressing question on the communication board. Nurse Gwen gave a courtesy chuckle on that one.
Dr. Jason Bruse (two first names! I've taken to just calling him Bruse) is the bomb.com. He puts up with me, laughs at my jokes, and even autographed my foot when he had to mark it for surgery. He's just a cool guy.
Nurse Racheal was probably my favorite person we encountered. We fan-girled over Taylor Swift together and she plugged her phone in back in the OR so we could listen to Shake It Off as I fell asleep. Nurse Tera insisted that T-Swift is overplayed, but Racheal and I disagreed. #1989 #fangirlforlife
My weekend pretty much looked like this, accompanied by a lot of sleep, fun pills, visits with friends, too many YouTube videos, and two seasons of New Girl. I'll admit, I was a little bored at first. Right now, however, I'd go back in two seconds. #iceandelevatefordays
Here's a little before and after action for your viewing pleasure. Look at them straight toes! Swollen, stitched, bruised... I've been told it looks like a Frankenstein foot. But, in the words of my wisest friend Rebecca Rose, "Feet weren't meant to be beautiful, they were meant to be practical." Too true, Becca. Too true.
Sunday, January 4, 2015
An anecdote on inspiration.
My foot is hurting worse today than it was yesterday, and I have a feeling it'll hurt worse tomorrow than it does today because I try to do too much. But that's not the point of this story. I'll tell that story tomorrow...with pictures!
Because of said hurting foot, I mostly stayed in bed until about 3:30, when I decided I better get working on the cookies I'd been asked to bring to dinner. I was still in my pajamas as I walked out to the kitchen and started gathering ingredients. The thought came to my mind "You should probably put on a bra." I hate wearing bras, like every other woman in the world, but I went back into my room and changed into something a bit more presentable that also offered some support, if you know what I mean. I then walked into the living room to open the blinds and let a little light into the house. Just as I open them, I see Kevin Farnsworth's car pulling up to my house and hear my phone ring. Kevin was calling, asking if he could come in and visit. Am I so glad I heeded that prompting or what?? Testimony builder right there.
Because of said hurting foot, I mostly stayed in bed until about 3:30, when I decided I better get working on the cookies I'd been asked to bring to dinner. I was still in my pajamas as I walked out to the kitchen and started gathering ingredients. The thought came to my mind "You should probably put on a bra." I hate wearing bras, like every other woman in the world, but I went back into my room and changed into something a bit more presentable that also offered some support, if you know what I mean. I then walked into the living room to open the blinds and let a little light into the house. Just as I open them, I see Kevin Farnsworth's car pulling up to my house and hear my phone ring. Kevin was calling, asking if he could come in and visit. Am I so glad I heeded that prompting or what?? Testimony builder right there.
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
the title of my book.
I was watching The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon last night (I usually just watch clips on YouTube, but I finally saw part of it on the real TV!) and David Sedaris was on. I've not actually read any of his books (I'll hit the library on my way home tonight...), but he's a funny guy. He was talking about his latest book, Let's Explore Diabetes with Owls, and how he came up with the title.
So then I started thinking.
Back up. I really started thinking when I was texting my gf Kasey last Wednesday about 'natural beauty' and suggested she include her thoughts in her book....
So then I started thinking.
Back up. I really started thinking when I was texting my gf Kasey last Wednesday about 'natural beauty' and suggested she include her thoughts in her book....
What will the title be?
WHY IS THAT SUCH A DIFFICULT QUESTION? How do you want to be remembered by anyone who reads what you write? Such a challenge.
So. I've been thinking. Not that I have plans to write a book, but if I did (and everyone should, right? Everyone has something to say. Or something to say about something that someone else said...), how would I title it? Some ideas...
Yeeeeeeah buddy, a memoir.
Kelsey Richardson: An aspiring Golden Girl
Dancing through Life...and I Can't Dance.
My Left Foot Can't Dance (Come to our Thursday night tap class if you want me to prove it...)
1993 (If Taylor Swift did it, so can I.)
I Can't Even: Growing Up in the Age of Incomplete Sentences.
How to Buy Friends and Manipulate People
Thoughts/suggestions/votes are completely welcome. Nothing is set in stone yet, but this could be a good starting point. I mean, we're given a name before we've done anything significant in life, right? All the good stuff comes after the name.
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
As We Stumble Along
One of my favorite songs from one of my favorite shows... So much wisdom in this "rousing anthem": we're stumbling through this journey, not sure what to do, but we just need to hope. Push and shove and live and learn. And there will be a song as we plumble.
As we stumble along
on life's funny journey.
As we stumble along into the blue.
We look here, and we look there.
Seeking answers anywhere.
Never sure of where to turn or what to do.
Still we bumble our way
through life's crazy labyrinth.
Barely knowing left from right
nor right from wrong.
And the best that we can do
is hope a blue bird,
will sing his song
as we stumble along.
It's a dismal little world in which we live.
It can bore you till you've nothing left to give.
Seven overrated wonders, sever underwhelming seas.
Six excruciating continents.
Antarctica. Oh please!
Yet you mustn't let it lick you
this planet oh so bland.
Keep your eyeball on the highball
in your hand.
As we stumble along
'cross life's crowded dance floors.
As we push and we shove
we live and we learn.
And when we finally leave the bar,
And we see that morning star,
we pull our boot straps up
and homeward turn.
Then we stumble away
through dawn's blinding sunbeams.
Barely knowing right from right nor left from wrong.
But as long as we can hear that little blue bird
There'll be a song as we stumble along.
As we stumble,
bumble,
fumble,
plumble,
As we stumble along.
As we stumble along
on life's funny journey.
As we stumble along into the blue.
We look here, and we look there.
Seeking answers anywhere.
Never sure of where to turn or what to do.
Still we bumble our way
through life's crazy labyrinth.
Barely knowing left from right
nor right from wrong.
And the best that we can do
is hope a blue bird,
will sing his song
as we stumble along.
It's a dismal little world in which we live.
It can bore you till you've nothing left to give.
Seven overrated wonders, sever underwhelming seas.
Six excruciating continents.
Antarctica. Oh please!
Yet you mustn't let it lick you
this planet oh so bland.
Keep your eyeball on the highball
in your hand.
As we stumble along
'cross life's crowded dance floors.
As we push and we shove
we live and we learn.
And when we finally leave the bar,
And we see that morning star,
we pull our boot straps up
and homeward turn.
Then we stumble away
through dawn's blinding sunbeams.
Barely knowing right from right nor left from wrong.
But as long as we can hear that little blue bird
There'll be a song as we stumble along.
As we stumble,
bumble,
fumble,
plumble,
As we stumble along.
Saturday, November 15, 2014
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance
Once upon a time, I had to write a book report for my stress management class. I guess that's not too much to ask, since we never have quizzes or tests, and our homework typically consists of only book assignments and naps.
Anyway, I read this book. It was alright. I can't figure out if I liked it or not... But feel free to read what I wrote about it...
The last half is the best, if I do say so myself.
Anyway, I read this book. It was alright. I can't figure out if I liked it or not... But feel free to read what I wrote about it...
The last half is the best, if I do say so myself.
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The
briefest synopsis of this book I could give would be to say it’s the story of a
man and his son who, one summer, take a long motorcycle trip together. However,
if I were to tell someone that just before they began reading, that wouldn’t
give them the slightest inclination as to what this book is really about. There
is infinitely more. In fact, I’d venture to say this book is complex enough
that no matter how many times you read it, you’d find something new every time.
To
take my synopsis a bit deeper, while the story is about the narrator and his
son on a trip, it’s also about his relationship with the few other characters
to whom we’re introduced. It’s a comparison of their perceptions of life and
his. It’s a recounting of his life and his philosophies through what the
narrator calls a “Chautauqua.” Among a large variety of topics covered, the
narrator talks of quality, relationships, mental illness, values, technology,
theories, acceptance, and of course, motorcycle maintenance.
While
this book does not deal directly with stress management, the narrator talks a
lot of thought and behavior. When talking of John and Sylvia Sutherland, the
friends who travel with us for the first portion of the book, the narrator points
out something very closely related with things we’ve discussed in class: “…they
must have been thinking about how bad all this is. That’s what’s really wearing
them down. The thought.” Of course it is! If only John and Sylvia knew that our
brains were behind absolutely everything, that their thought influenced their
situation, their mood, their world. Their situation wasn’t inherently bad; it
was merely their perception of the situation, and perhaps the influence of
their perception. It’s simply about how we look at things.
In
contrast, the narrator describes another friend we meet, Robert DeWeese, as
“all here and now, completely relaxed.” That phrase immediately brought the
concept of mindfulness into my thoughts. The narrator says, “I realize that
although this is the authentic image of DeWeese himself, it’s also a brand-new
person who’s been renewing himself continually and I’m going to have to get to
know him all over again.” I love that idea of being so present in the moment
that we’re continually changing. While the character is fictional, I think
DeWeese’s level of mindfulness is something one ought to work to obtain.
The
concept of Quality is something discussed quite a bit during the second half of
the book. It was the focus of Phaedrus’ thoughts and lectures for a time,
Phaedrus being the name the narrator used to refer to his younger, “former”
self. He became obsessed with trying to define Quality, only to realize that to
define Quality would simultaneously remove the Quality and turn it into
something less desirable. I loved that Quality didn’t need to be defined, that
one could simply know it without having a meaning for it.
Spoiler
alert: isn’t it interesting that, while avoiding giving Quality a definition,
Phaedrus realized that the small stipulations he’d put on Quality had defined
it, and that it was the realization that led to his downfall? I find that
fascinating, and terribly depressing at the same time.
The
short answer to the question of why I chose this book is simply that it was the
only book on the provided list that I already owned. The better answer is this:
Over this past summer, I celebrated my 21st birthday. I’m one of
those people who tend to approach a birthday with a bit of anxiety—have I
accomplished what I hoped I would in the past year? Have I done enough? What
will life bring in the next twelve months of my life? What was Oprah doing at
21? You get the idea. Anyway, a good friend and I were at Barnes and Noble one
evening, which was not uncommon. My friend is one of the smartest people I know,
I trust (nearly) everything she says to be a fact. She’s a couple years older
than me, and I very much trust her wisdom, so I asked her to direct me to a
book that would change my life (because I’m sure that’s what Oprah would do).
She gave me two: Slaughterhouse Five, and Zen and the Art of Motorcycle
Maintenance. I haven’t finished Slaughterhouse Five, so I can’t yet tell you
the impact it’s had on my life.
I
guess the question at this point is whether or not the book fulfilled its
purpose—has it changed my life? Right now, my answer is not yet. As I mentioned at the beginning of my ramblings, this book
is complex. For me, reading the narrator’s Chautauqua is comparable to reading
Isaiah in the Old Testament. What do I know of Kant or Plato or Aristotle?
Surely I know more now than I did at the beginning of the book, but it’d take
at least another reading or two to better grasp the teachings analyzed in this
book. I need time to process.
I’m not sure
that I’d recommend this book to others, unless it were to be my aforementioned
smart friend, in which case, she’s already read it. This book requires
commitment, it isn’t light reading. And who has time for commitment these days?
For weeks, I was sure that all I wanted was to finish reading this novel and
move on. However, multiple times, I found myself craving this book. Sitting at
my desk at work, I’d wonder what Phaedrus was going to teach next. I’d be
thinking about Chris and what his mother was like and what his future would be.
Mostly, I’d wonder what the narrator’s name was, and the lack of an answer will
never cease to bother me. And, thanks to my cursed curiosity, and an insane
desire to understand Aristotle, I’m afraid I have to read the book again. Thanks a lot, Mr. Pirsig. You
have me hooked.
Friday, October 17, 2014
DIY Fall Break
Directors of higher education have apparently not yet discovered that one day off does not a Fall Break make.
Fortunately for me, I figured it out on my own. Allow me to teach you my ways.
(Please note that some plans need to be adjusted to better suit individual preference. Awesomeness is subjective.)
1. Don't actually go to school unless it's truly necessary.
This point does transfer over to other weeks of the semester. Most Monday's, I find that Physics is not necessary. Rather, Monday is a great day for sleeping in and pretending that responsibility is nonexistent. That also includes homework. All other events take priority over completing assignments. My preferred method of avoidance is going to the theater--musicals trump homework. Every. Day.
Shout out to my favorite friend Lizzie for being my date two nights in a row and enabling my procrastination.
2. Set goals, but don't make plans. That's half of a Preach My Gospel principle.
Not making plans is so LIBERATING. I tend to fill my weekends with things that, half of the time, I don't actually want to be doing. This weekend, that shall NOT happen. I'm learning to say no, and it's wonderful. See? So many things to be learned from a full week of Fall Break!
3. Spend as much time in comfortable clothes as possible.
I try to apply this point every day, but we all know sometimes it just doesn't happen. However, during Fall Break, it's essential. (No, there won't be a photo to illustrate this point. 1, I feel like it's self-explanatory. 2, Never you mind what my cozy clothes look like.)
I have a testimony of Fall Break. When done correctly, it can change your life. I invite you to try it for yourself, because I want everyone to know the joy of living the Fall Break lifestyle.
You're welcome.
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